Sadness, Strength and Hope

Be where you are, otherwise you will miss your life - Buddha

I am feeling better today.  It always scares me when I feel sad for no reason, and even scarier when it lasts for a few days.  Wednesday night I worked and towards the end of the night had developed a wicked headache.  It took a couple hours before I could get off the floor to take some advil, but once I did it didn't take long to start working thankfully!!!  By the time I got home Thursday morning I was pretty dragged out.  I decided in my infinite wisdom, to not take any chances of not sleeping.  I took an Aleve and a full sleeping pill then went straight to bed.  I had a wonderful sleep.  I slept from 9am until 5:15!!  I still didn't want to get up, but for some reason the company I work for thinks I should show up since they pay me???  How silly is that LOL!

Thursday night went much better. I felt rested, the line ran well and to top things off I was able to get a lot done.  Now I did have an issue with one of our temp agency associates but I dealt with that.

Today I slept a couple hours.....yep about 2.....maybe 2.5, then I got up and had a shower and got ready to go to the gym.  Today was a weigh and measure day.......it hasn't been a fun day for me lately.  I have hit a plateau and so the scale isn't moving and I am getting frustrated.  Today was better news than I expected though, I gained 2 pounds BUT lost almost 0.5% body fat!!  So that tells me that I am retaining water but still burning fat.  I have decided to give myself a week of NO diet at all, then I will start the phase 1, 2, 3 cycle again once my metabolism is fired up again.  With the sun out again and the warmer weather here I hope to get out more often. 

On another note, my sister in law sent me an email today.  She is a remarkable woman.  I envy her in so many ways, am so proud of her and love her to bits.  My dear SIL decided to try the Curves challenge once she saw not only what it is doing for me, but how much I am enjoying it.  She started with a month of strength training, then added the eating plan and now has decided to quit smoking!!  She is quickly approaching the 72hour mark.  While it hasn't been easy she is doing well and I am proud of her for tackling yet another huge life change in such a short time.  I don't need to cross my fingers because she doesn't need luck, she is a strong woman and I know that when she puts her mind to something, nothing can stop her :)  Love ya Girl!!


I am relieved that my mood has lifted.  While I am not singing and dancing in the streets, I am also not on the verge of tears (well ok crying)  on and off.  I am hoping that with good night sleep tonight and some sun tomorrow (hopefully a good walk with the dog) I will be back where I want to be.   I am positive now that I missed (ignored??) some signs from my body telling me I was pushing it, so it pushed back and slugged me over the head with a sign.  No more pushing it for me, at least for awhile.....anyone who knows me, knows I like to push my limits.  So tonight a dose of sleeping pill and a snuggle up to my hubby.   Tomorrow, get some yard work done, some sun, a visit with a good friend and some laughs!!  I had my sad day, now is time to be happy again.

Cheers!