Bad Day.....

Our greatest glory is not in never failing, but rising up every time we do fail. -Ralph Waldo Emerson

Today was a bad day.  Still is I guess since I haven't gone to bed yet.  I woke up sad, went through the day sad, and am now exhausted and still sad.  I don't really know for sure why, but I have some suspicions.  The one most likely being I have worked a lot of overtime lately.  The weather is always a possibility and the PMS aspect too lol. 

This last couple weeks have been busy.  I have had to take over as LSL again as my LSL is off in definitely with a sore shoulder, which means I am the lead on my line, need to come in early to organize team for the day and need to answer for our results for the shift.  I also drove school bus Thursday afternoon, worked Friday, Saturday and Sunday at the plant, then again Monday afternoon with the school bus and today 6 hours at the plant.  Tomorrow and Thursday I work night shifts at the plant.  This weekend I won't be doing anything 'work-like' at all.  No cleaning the house, nothing like that at all!  Saturday evening I am going to a candle party at a friend's.  I am really looking forward to it!! Otherwise I am planning on doing absolutely nothing. 

The other frustration, or possible reason for my sad feelings, would be my weight.  While I haven't gained at all, I haven't lost either.  I know that I should focus on all that I have achieved but sometimes it is hard not to focus on how far I have left to go.  I have decided to focus on getting myself into a Mon, Wed, Friday regime at the gym and not let myself talk me out of going just because it is a work day.  I am going before work, which is tough, but I hope that it will pay off.  The other thing I have done is stopped 'dieting'.  I am going to give my body a break (which is suggested by Phase 3, but they have it more structured).  I want to give my mind a break too, by not worrying about what I am or not eating.  I will keep an eye on my weight so that I don't gain a bunch that I have to worry about losing later.  I think in a few weeks, I will start doing phase 3 strict for a few days and then back to phase 1 for 2 days then back to 3 etc.  Hopefully I can instill the workout routine and not let it slide over the summer. 


I tried to choose to be happy today.  I honestly did.  I even thought that maybe being at work would help.  Boy was I wrong!  Actually it wasn't so bad, at least the first few hours.  Towards the end of the day the department manager asked me some questions, that hit a sore spot for me.  Honestly I thought I was over it, and for the most part I think I am, but today being a rough mood day and then that particular conversation.....I don't know.......

So where do I go from here?  I guess my first step is to get some sleep.  I am going to relax and read for a few hours since I am working tomorrow night I can't go to bed early.  But tomorrow I will make sure I go to bed earlier so that I get a little extra sleep before the gym and work. 

Keep your fingers crossed for me, pray if you believe and send happy thoughts.  I am sure tomorrow will be better